On New Year's Day I thought "Wow, this is the first day of the rest of my life". Of course this set me to pondering about my life and what I'd like to create. I finished my last chemotherapy on Dec. 26th. I woke up that day with a head cold (my kids had been sick the previous week) and wondered if I should take chemo. Of course part of me screamed "don't do it" while the other part said "get it over with". The nurses said provided I didn't have a fever or headache I could still take it. Lucky me!
It went off without a hitch and I felt fine until Friday - 2 days later. Then it hit me like a ton of bricks and I was in bed thinking I was going to die. Each day I got a bit better but it's amazing how slow the body is to heal with all those nasty poisons going in. I didn't have so much nausea but I did develop a terrible rash on my hands that is only now starting to heal. After being in bed for 5 days I did venture out for New Years Eve and rang in the New Year with my beloved friend Tracy and her family and friends in their new home.
On New Years Day I took the girls to see the Met's production of Hansel and Gretel. We really enjoyed it, even more so than the Magic Flute that we saw last year. I love that the Met is now broadcasting via satellite their performances. I"m not sure I would have ever seen an opera otherwise.
Nausea came after New Years but is dissapating now as is the head cold. My goal for now is to rebuild my body and my strength. In speaking to one of my naturopath's he said I want you to go slow, rest, eat well and exercise. It all sounds so easy and there is a part of me that feels like I should be doing more. He said "Lisa I know you, you want to go out and conquer the world right away." And of course he is right, my life feels like it's been on hold for the last 8 months.
Today I exercised for the first time in months - other than walking when I can. I was winded easily and felt very out of shape. I know it will come in time but how frustrating it is. This is the first item on my list for the rest of my life. There are many more and I will share them as they come up.
It's cold, windy and rainy here. I'm off to take my dogs for a run on my bike with my husband. Then clean up my old van to ready for sale since I bought myself a new Honda Odyssey for Christmas with all the bells and whistles. It's a great day to be alive and I choose to live each moment today as if it is my last. Peace...
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